Stupid Monster

I met him last night
I saw his beautiful smile that I missed this 2 months
I had been trying to forget him
But it failed

I tried to pull my self from his things
But I can't
Every effort that I made,
It just made me love him more each day

I could control my self in front of him
But I lost my self when he disappeared

Wish that he knew what I've been dreaming of this long is only him
Wish that he knew how big my love for him but I can't tell it
Wish that he could read my mind and also I can read his mind

I'm good enough of pretending that you are nothing for me
But I can't keep on fool my self

"Don't judge a book from its cover"

I agree with that quote. People have a mask to protect their selves. Some people use glamor masks to hide their weakness. And some people use rebel masks to hide their kindness. I don't know which side I am. Well, every people has a good and a bad side, right? So, I guess they should have both kinds of that mask.

Friends

Just cry if you wanna cry.
Don't laugh when you're sad.
You know I'll be beside you when you need me.
I'll wipe your tears away.
I'll be what you want if he can't be your everything.

Ya know, this life would be hard without you.
I might not be this good without you.
I'll be the luckiest girl with you.
I'll be so grateful for having you.

Best Friends

When I'm with them, my world turns into colorful
My tears turn into laughs
And all I see is a beautiful life

When I'm down, they lend their hands to me
They keep me up
They keep me warm
They sweep all worries in my heart

They put a big smile on my face
They erase that frown on my face
They make me feel like I'm not alone
I really can count on them

When I'm with them, I just be me
And I'm thankful for having them, my best friends.

Listen-Beyoncé

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all cause you won't listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

Listen

I never want to be like this
Being in this situation just killing me
I need something to hold on

But everyone is busy with their own business
I'm alone

When I'm just gonna ask my best friends for hang out together, they were taken by 'high school' problems
And when I need to talk to him, he's trying to disappear from me

I'm tired, I'm sick!

Sucks!

There are many kinds of people in this world

People you can't far away of are your family and friends.
You really need them. I know it. Everybody knows it.

This is the hardest part: We have to share (the people you love) to everyone else.

And you might say that is easy to let someone go with his/her friends, but always followed by a little ego and jealousy.

I don't wanna be a little boss in YOUR life. I have mine.
I don't wanna be good when you're bad. We're best friends. We're good together.
But I am a human. And so you are.
I don't care who your friends are, but everytime you play with them, you left me alone.

I was crying in my bed room.
I posted what I felt on twitter.
And suddenly, you blamed on me.

I just remind you that I'm alone here. And you're happy with them.

You said that you're my best friend.
I'd rather didn't have none of them than have to hurt each other.