No title.

I'm not like other girls
I don't wear shorts or 10-centi heels
I don't need red lipstick just to kiss you
No I don't

You are kind of a bad boy
It's 3 a.m
You sent me those sweet messages
You showed me that you care
But now,
No, you don't.

Oh I'm such a fool
for falling for you
For blushing for every stupid messages
that you sent

You played me
Betrayed me
But I'm still ok
Still standing here like a steal

Oh, congrats boy
My heart is craving for you now
What you left is only stupid chat history
Stupid me for trusted you

Now I'm still check out your profile
Wondering you'd tweet me
But actually,
No you don't


You played me
Betrayed me
But I'm still ok
Still standing here like a steal


Oh, congrats boy
My heart is craving for you now
What you left is only stupid chat history
Stupid me for trusted you

I'm not like other girls
I don't wear shorts or 10 centis heels
And you know what????
I'm so much better!

You played me
Betrayed me
But I'm still ok
Still standing here like a steal


Oh, congrats boy
My heart is craving for you now
What you left is only stupid chat history
And, oh wait,
Stupid you for not keeping me right.

I trust you

I've been hurt many times
Tears just don't fall down
I walk in the dark
Just to find the sun

I am burried here
And no one knows
I tried to scream
They hear, but they don't listen

Oh baby, you found me here
You gave me light
to believe in myself
I am not alone
I have you here by my side
I trust you

When the sun goes down
I'm running through the forest
I'm too scared to tell what I need to tell
But you chase me
Tell me 'I will always be right here'

Oh baby, you found me here
You gave me light
to believe in myself
I am not alone
I have you here by my side

I trust you

And the night comes
I don't feel so afraid
Cause I know
I know
You will found me here
You gave me light
to believe in myself
I am not alone
I have you here by my side

I trust you
Oh baby, I trust you

No Title

I'm such a bad  person.
I know that.
I'm such a bad friend and such a horrible daughter.

I'm messing everything around me.
I mock people. But somehow they just love with with all of their hearts.
And they always be there when I really need them most.

And when I start loving people, they make me down.
And now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders.

Somehow, I really want to fix all this mess.
I can't stand it anymore.
I need to tell people how I feel. I'm hurt.
I just wish they would all understand.

Get It Right

What have I done?
I wish I could run,
away from this ship going under
just trying to help out everyone else
now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

what can you do when your good isn’t good enough
and all that you touch tumbles down?
cause my best intentions
keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
but how many times will it take?
oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

can I start again, with my fate shaken?
cause I can’t go back and endure this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
but if I get stronger and wiser, I’ll get through this

what can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
and all that you touch tumbles down?
cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
but how many times will it take?
oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

so I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
and accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair!
yeah, I’ll send down a wish and I’ll send up a prayer
and finally someone will see how much I care

what can you do when you’re good isn’t good enough?
and all that you touch tumbles down?
cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
but how many times will it take?
oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

:')

You said we're best friends forever. We are. But what 'forever' means if I only exist when you need me. Well, I don't care if you need me or not, but I need you so much. Yeah, like SO MUCH! And I miss 'the old you', the new one sucks. I just hope, wherever you are, whenever you are, you still care about me. Girl, you have to know: 1. You are the best friend ever that's rock my world; 2. I ♥ you. No matter what will happen; 3. Please don't change. I love you the way you are, but just don't forget me, okay?

It hurts.

Do you know how it feels when you like a boy, but he likes another girl which is cooler than you, richer than you, more beautiful than you, and also more popular than you?

You want to blame on her. But you've got nothing to blame on. He likes her is not her fault. He likes her is not his fault, neither.

All you want to do is scream and cry out loud. Wishing that someone would lend their shoulder for you to cry on.

You wanna kill him. But somehow, you're falling in love with him. You're going to curse him, but suddenly you feel pity on him.

All you can do is only be patient. Seeing him happy with her, it hurts. But you would do anything to make him smile even if he doesn't smile for you, but for her.


-I know how it feels. It hurts.

Baduy, second day.

Hey people! Since I was have exams, I haven't post the next story about Baduy. Well, here it is!

Jadi, pagi-pagi, kita semua bangun. Sekitar jam setengah 6an, kita ke kali buat ambil wudhu buat solat. Abis solat, kita hafalin lagi ayat-ayat yang semalem kita harus hafalin, soalnya, setiap orang harus setor hafalan ke pak Bobby. Nah, setelah semuanya udah setoran hafalan, kita pergi ke sungai. Kalau kita mau ke sungai itu, butuh perjuangan yang besar. Pertama, kita harus ngelewatin jembatan yang goyang-goyang, terus kita harus ngelewatin tanjakan liciiiiiin. Udah gitu, ngeliat kondisi sungai yang airnya butek gara-gara abis hujan, yang cewek-cewek balik lagi ke kali yang kemaren kita mandi. Tapi, karena gue males bgt mandinya, jadi, gue tinggal aja dirumah.

Abis pada selesai mandi, kita semua makan terus siap-siap pulang. Nah pas pulang, astaga! Kita nanjak tanjakan yang kayak gak ada abis nya :O Gue sampe keabisan nafas. Dan lebih parahnya, minum gue abis. Untung ada pak Bobby. Tas gue di angkat sama dia jadi gak terlalu berat o:)

Nah pas turunan, sepeatu gue jebol. Dan akhirnya gue ganti sendal. Eh, bukannya lebih enak gitu jalannya, gue malah kepleset. Celana, baju, tas gue kotor semua. Tapi untungnya, gara-gara gue jatoh tas gue jadi dibawain dan akhirnya gue nyeker dari tempat guejatoh sampe ke tempatnya ms. Nur.

Di tronton, kita semua pada nyanyi-nyayi. Ada juga yang kena hukuman gara-gara kalah games. Walaupun sampe ada yang sakit dan perjalanan di jalan macet banget, tapi gue seneng banget! This is one of the best moments with firgenozta 2011 :D

And here are some photos: