All He Hides

That was the first time
I saw my daddy cried in front of me
My world's turn to gray
On the table
Ate my lunch with tears on my cheeks

I thought Cinderella's step mother's only in a fairy tale
But now, it is exist in my real life

I'm tryin' to be strong
Keep my tears to not fall down
But I've tried my best

On the table
We cried together
Daddy told me that he's still a human
He has feelings that no one's know

I cried louder
When she just gonna leave
Daddy's let her go
We cried together

I never think about what he feels
He's lonely and where am I when he needs me?
He's crying inside his heart
And he's laughing in the outside

He promises me to take care of me
He promises me to love me
I believe it

Oh, mommy has gone
Sometimes, fairy tales were right
This world isn't fair

I am weak
But people are holding me up to keep being strong
No regretting
This is life
Enjoy it
Keep move on
Learn from your mistakes

Selfish, Just Accept It.

My heart's crying
Oh baby, twitter becomes my diary every night
And facebook becomes an album of your photos
I see

I sent a message for you
I wait for you to reply mine
But I know you never reply it

Oh yes I know you're mad at me
And I'm trying so hard to forget you
But what can I do if my heart still miss you
What can I say if my brain still keep all the data of you

Oh, I'm not strong as you think
And I can't trough everything without you here

And when you're going to go
I hope you read all the messages I leave for you
I hope you understand all the reasons why I cry

This is all so stupid
I know I shouldn't cry over you
Cause I know you're not even cry over me

But this is what I feel
Please accept it

If you can't say it, You can sing it!

" Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart 
There's nothing I can do... a total eclipse of the heart 
Once upon a time there was light in my life, but now there's only love in the dark 
Nothing I can say... a total eclipse of the heart " -Bonnie Tyler



"  So i'll let you go 
I'll set you free.....

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see " -David Cook

" What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you

What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces " -The Script

" And I hope you find it,

What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more
And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it "-Miley Cyrus

" An I can't stay mad at you for anything " -Demi Lovato ft. Joe Jonas

Smiling outside, crying inside.

When you said you're gonna leave this little town, my heart were moved. There's something that wasn't in the right place in my heart. We are friends. But I want you more than friend. I was falling in love with you. And after you're leaving, I don't want to regret all what I have done. So, I decided to spend the time to get know you better and better and better than before. But, I don't get it what you mean. I don't know if being like this it just annoys you. And now, you're mad at me. What should I do? Say sorry? Did that for a hundred times. Should I begging on your knees? Seriously, I love you, but I'm gonna kill you.

"And i hope you find everything that you need, I'll be right here waiting to see"-David Cook

Here's The Deal

This post is dedicated to Gusthy Mongga Khairunnisa, my beloved best friend.

First thing she should know about me is I love her so much. I'll do everything just to make her happy, even I have to kill my self.

I love being with her cause she makes me feel comfort everytime me and her hang out together. I love her cause she keeps my story from A-Z. She's unpredictable. She's awesome.

Second thing she should know about my feeling is I don't know what the hell it is that makes her changed 180 degrees than before. All I know is, she is strong. Yes, stronger than me. All I know is, she'll keep saying that she's okay even she's no. All I know is, she knows where she has to be in the dark side or the bright side.

I'll hurt her if it's for her best. Not me, not even Tika. It's all about her I care about.
I do mad.
Cause someone stole my beloved best friend from my side.
And changed her into something I don't like.